already half of year 3 has past........ but i'm still feeling miserable and i'm just not sure bout my future i don have strong feeling that i would have a bright bright future and the path doesn't seem as easy , as straght forward as i have imagined before. some of my friends have already secured contracts, and of cos i know they're the intelligent ones...... i don know if i could do the same ???? and i have fear that i cannot achieve what i want, or what my family has expected from you, i'm afraid of letting them down...... lately, the pressure has increased greatly...... i thought i should be capable by now to cope wif my pressure, but am i really so?????? i seem to know how to talk, but not really how to act i seem to have a plan, but i don really have one, or i just have one which i ain't ambitious enof to act on it!!!!!!!!! i hate such personality in me!!!!!! | 
